Saturday, January 29th, 2011

Am I being the best I can be? Am I growing like I want to or need to? These are a couple of the questions on my mind tonight. I want to be the best person I can be, really work on growing, and this year is the perfect time to do it. I am excited for the new possibilities in my life, for the opportunity for real, if painful, growth. I want to live up to my true potential, as a son of God, as a flawed but trying human being.

I want this to be the year I dig into the thoughts and patterns that hold me back, and change things that may be dysfunctional in my life. I want to grow musically, spiritually, mentally, physically. I want to grow my business and see it succeed, and learn what I need to to run it. I want to overcome bad habits, unhealthy or dysfunctional thought patterns, and learn to overcome toxic shame and guilt. I want to be a good friend, a strength in other people’s lives. A good listener. “To have a friend, be one,” as the ceramic plaque that hung on my mom’s wall said. I want to be someone that others can turn to because I don’t give them unwanted advice. Because I give them strength. I want to be someone people can count on.

You only get one life. You might as well live it to the fullest. A great quote I saw today said that life is not only to be endured, but enjoyed. Too often we (read: I) forget that. Too often I get caught up in the problems and challenges of life, losing sight of the big picture in the process. Not being able to see the forest for the trees. As nickelback so eloquently said, “This is your life. Are you who you wanna be?”